Decisions.

Friday, May 5, 2017

Some decisions are hard.
Some come easily.
Others are terrifying.
At times heartbreaking.

Our most recent decision was all four combined into one entangled emotion. As many of you know we have spent that few weeks in Ethiopia. Our trip and path to Ethiopia was not like any other we had seen from adoptive families. We had 24 hours notice to board a plane and make our way over to Addis Ababa. As we began our layover in Dubai, we were met with the hard information that Federal MOWA had closed, however there was not a whole lot of certainty as to whether or not it would affect our case because we simply needed a vital records letter, not an actual Federal MOWA letter. We tried to stay positive, trusting that God was getting us into Ethiopia in record speed, we were hopefully He would not allow us to get caught up in the mess that was about to transpire here in the adoption realm of Ethiopia.

Court came quickly. We took custody of our son because at the time there was still an issuing of vital record letters and our agency was told that ours would be issued. That night, after we had our first meal with our little guy, we learned that we would not receive a letter that would allow us to leave the country with our son. Having already taken custody, we realized that we were in it for the long haul. We have begged God to allow our letter to be issued, but it does not appear as if we are going to be given that letter, so the decision has been made. That hard, easy, terrifying, and heartbreaking decision. Todd will be returning to the states to care for the rest of our crew and I will remain in Ethiopia to fight to bring home a son who is legally ours by both Ethiopian and American law. We sat before a judge almost 2 weeks ago and promised to take care of Mulubrihan. Promised to treat him like our own. Promised not to leave him.

So here I sit.
Tired.
Emotional.
Hurting.    

I will be completely honest, I do not know how to move forward from this point, other then one day at at a time. Yes. I know that God is writing our story. That God's timing is perfect. That there is a purpose and a plan, but in this moment I feel blinded. Trust me when I say that I know that God is writing a beautiful story, one far greater then I could ever imagine, but in this moment it is hard for my heart to see. It is hard for me to wrap my mind around. It is hard thinking that I will likely be here for at least another month. This will be my outlet, my time to share what God is doing in these tough moments. Those sacred moments that reveal how God continues to challenge and change my heart, soul, strength and mind.

4 comments:

  1. Summer, I have been praying for you and for this suspension to end. I've commented here once before as we are in the process of adopting a little girl from Ethiopia and have been waiting 14 months just to enter pair. I also have a friend from my agency who passed court but then had to come home without her son. It seems like the embassy is working hard to advocate for these cases, so I hope things turn around quickly and you can head home with your son! Prayers for you and your whole family continue!

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    1. YES. The embassy is doing a tremendous job. We could not feel more fought for by our government here in Addis. I am so sorry to hear your process is taking such a great deal of time just to get going. The process in Ethiopia definitely has no rhyme or reason. It took us about a year to get through the pair process. Hoping that everything in your case gets "caught up" quickly and that you are soon with your sweet girlie here in Addis... not stuck, but going home.

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  2. Dear Summer and Todd: It seems to be a GREAT time of testing but God will remain with you and he will not turn his back towards you. I know, easy to say but really hard to live through. Maybe Pastor Mark is right, time to start a new church in Ethiopia. They won't let you out of their country with part of your family, so you stay and enlist God's help with a new church. I don't even know if that would be allowed and it almost sounds like a joke, but maybe not. You have been through more adoptions than we so you know the ropes much better than I our prayers continue so that God knows you are not out of our thoughts. Thank you for your continuing updates. Be of good cheer God will have the last word in this. Theron & Laurel Fraser

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    1. Thank you so much Theron. We are sharing Jesus with anyone who will listen here in Addis. Praying for street children, talking with anyone who speaks English... just missing our older 4 kiddos. Thank you for praying for our family.

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