the heart of winter: survival.

Wednesday, March 18, 2015

my heart does not know where to begin.
i have pondered and thought through this post for months.
perhaps years.

but it is now i bravely share where i am and where i am living and growing through.  i are deeply imbedded in winter.  not a winter of weather, but a winter of suffering.  hurting.  aching.  it is not depression, but a heart that is aching for something else.  something different.  something to change.  a heart that is wild and raw; a heart of winter that would seem to be all-consuming and never-ending.

mark buchanan, in his book spiritual rhythm, describes winter as the absence of light, God, friends.  i have profoundly felt the void of these things.  i felt the presence of darkness, the silence of God, the absence of trusted community.  in that void, that abandonment, i have suffered.  i have wept.  i have hurt.  i have lost hope.  i have longed.  i have ached for change.  it has felt all-consuming and never-ending.  and recently, it has purpose.

did you read that?
my winter has a purpose.
it has a purpose in my heart.
soul.
mind.
strength.
it always has had purpose.
and now i see it.
vaguely.

"i believe every heartache and hardship, and the profound loneliness such things bring, has a back door.  they allow us enter into a communion with Christ we don't usually experience in our days of ease and song.  most of us have had our deepest encounters with Christ not on mountaintops, but in valley floors." spiritual rhythm on being in winter

in an effort to be authentic, i admit that this journey has been years.  it has been a dark and desolate time and for me and it is not over.  i am on my valley floor.  on my knees.  looking up.  begging God to change things.  begging God to make himself abundantly present in my life.  to speak into my life with purpose.

everyone experiences a desolate time in their lives.  it is harsh and hard, but it is a time where we deeply grow in our faith.  it is where we encounter God in such a beautiful way.  where our growth is beautiful.  where we find a passion for Christ.  where we are refined and redirected.  where we consider what God has for our lives.  it changes who we are and who we are called to be.  it draws us deeply into communion with who God is and who he is calling us to be.  but lets not forget it is painful and often we do not listen.

i do no hear God.
i break my silence.
even when God does not.
it is this brokenness that shapes me.
and i strive to listen.

it is muffled, but in my listening & am hearing Gods whisper.  i am seeing direction and an understanding of what it means to walk well in the midst of "winter".  my winter stands firm, it does not waver, but i am working desperately to do things differently, understanding the pureness that prayer brings is key in my growth in my faith, that waiting has a beautiful purpose, and that this time in my life will only bring a deeper growth that no other season can bring.  it is now that my faith is being built because of sheer desperation that can only come in these moments of refinement.

it is now and only now that i am beginning to see the blessing that comes from a time like this.

"those who sow with tears shall reap with joyful shouting." psalm 126:5

while i await my joyful shouting, i will continue to be pruned with a flood of tears, i will prayerfully seek Jesus, looking up from my val



ley, knowing that God has given me a way out.  or he will give me a way out.  but until that time, i am learning.

learning deeply to find joy.
to look for it.
to seek it out.
to share that with other people.

because when my winter is over, i want to shout it from the top of the mountain.  scream it from the top of the mountain.  i cannot wait until that time.  but for now... i survive.  however, i want to speak truth so that when my heart heals and God changes things for us, i can shout joyfully the top of the mountains as the psalmist says.  so that i may live authentically before others in my life.  to share life with others because life is a beautiful mess.



auction closed.

Friday, March 6, 2015

Auction
Closed.

doTerra Physicians Kit: Sandy Clark

please remember this is an adoption fundraising auction.  we are working hard at trying to raise the funds we need to make our haitian adoption happen.  


SANDY CLARK


Physicians Kit
The Family Physician® Kit is a collection of ten nurturing essential oils, including six single oils and four blends. 

Includes 5 mL Essential Oils: Lavender, Lemon, Peppermint, Melaleuca, Oregano, Frankincense, Deep Blue®, Breathe, DigestZen®, and On Guard to help families address a multitude of health issues.


retail value: $125



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glory print: Jones Design Group

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JONES DESIGN GROUP
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11x14 print

retail: $32
value: $25


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bonjou bangles: Noonday with Stephanie Nunes

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

please remember this is an adoption fundraising auction.  we are working hard at trying to raise the funds we need to make our haitian adoption happen.  


STEPH NUNES
 ambassador for Noonday Collections

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Embellished with colorful leather and festive fringe, these upcycled bangles are sure to make you smile every time you put them on.
2.6" in diameter
upcycled metal & leather

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single tag: Lisa Leonard Designs

please remember this is an adoption fundraising auction.  we are working hard at trying to raise the funds we need to make our haitian adoption happen.  


lisa leonard
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 single tag necklace

{sterling silver}

Each dainty sterling tag is cut, filed, hand-stamped, polished and drilled. Choose a word or name that carries meaning to you. Maximum 9 characters. It's strung on a sterling chain with a freshwater pearl. Simply beautiful.
customize this sweet necklace as well.
i cannot get over how simply beautiful this necklace is.

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handmade home book: A Beautiful Mess

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

please remember this is an adoption fundraising auction.  we are working hard at trying to raise the funds we need to make our haitian adoption happen.  


A BEAUTIFUL MESS
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these sweet girls inspire me deeply.  i am in love with their book Happy Handmade Home and they graciously have donated this to our auction.  if you have not yet picked it up, you now can join our auction and get yourself a copy & help bring our girl home from haiti.  sounds like a win-win to me.  i promise this book will not disappoint.  

they have inspired me to step out of the notion of perfection and live in the beauty that creating something beautiful can hold.  i will share my newest project, taken from their inspiring book soon.  i am in love with how it is turning out.

watch for my DIY from this book this week.

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petite original: Lisa Leonard Designs

please remember this is an adoption fundraising auction.  we are working hard at trying to raise the funds we need to make our haitian adoption happen.  


lisa leonard

 petite original

{sterling silver}


Simply gorgeous! These petite charms are hand-molded and cast in precious sterling silver. Stamp these charms with a meaningful name or word. Choose colorful fresh cut birthstones to make it even more meaningful. Starting price includes one charm and one birthstone. Charms are strung from sterling silver link chain. This necklace is also the perfect gift for a little lady. Classic and full of meaning! 
customize a petite original necklace.
how adorable is this necklace?  it has always been one of my favorites.



  
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open circle: Lisa Leonard Designs

please remember this is an adoption fundraising auction.  we are working hard at trying to raise the funds we need to make our haitian adoption happen.  


lisa leonard

open circle necklace

necklace {sterling silver}


Classic and absolutely stunning! The open circle necklace is hand-molded, cast in sterling silver and hand-stamped with your precious names or phrase. The charm is strung on sterling link chain and finished with a cream freshwater pearl. Both sides can be customized to make it truly one of a kind! It’s sure to be an every day favorite!
customize this amazing necklace as well.  
this is one of my all time favorite classic LLD necklaces.

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custom watercolor painting 8x10: joyfully ruined

please remember this is an adoption fundraising auction.  we are working hard at trying to raise the funds we need to make our haitian adoption happen. 

JOYFULLY RUINED
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this is a creation of your choice.  
you choose the colors.
the script style & layout.

there are limitations as to the length of the script i am able to create. 
it needs to be able to fit & still look amazing.


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spirit lead me: Beth Cupitt Art


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Beth Cupitt
beth cupitt art
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spirit lead me 
beth did this hoop design specific for our auction.  her talent astounds me deeply.  please head over to her shop and check out her work.  it is beyond beautiful.



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tetris cuff: Amber Cok Noonday


please remember this is an adoption fundraising auction.  we are working hard at trying to raise the funds we need to make our haitian adoption happen.  

AMBER COK
NOONDAY 
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tetris cuff
want to know something cool about this piece? 
you cannot get it anymore.
how awesome is that?
but you can get it here.

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polka dot wallet: The Ruffled Stitch

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THE RUFFLED STITCH
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can you even handle how amazing this cute little wallet is?

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photograpy session: Mallory Kappmeyer


please remember this is an adoption fundraising auction.  we are working hard at trying to raise the funds we need to make our haitian adoption happen.  

IDAHO FALLS AREA FRIENDS...
THIS ONE IS SPECIAL.
JUST FOR YOU.

MALLORY KAPPMEYER

Mallory has donated her time and her amazing talent.
simply amazing.  i have already asked her to do our photos in the summer.
she is donating an hour/ two and 30-50 edits.
that is a huge amount... y'all.  you need pictures.  they are beautiful memories.
iphone photos don't count.
you need the real deal.
here is your chance.


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go into the world pendant necklace: The Little Lighthouse

please remember this is an adoption fundraising auction.  we are working hard at trying to raise the funds we need to make our haitian adoption happen.  

THE LITTLE LIGHTHOUSE

Regions 2 Pendant - (Africa - Europe - Middle East - Asia)

Pendant bezel measures 1.5" in diameter and includes a beautiful 32" vintage style necklace with a lobster-style clasp. Longer/shorter necklaces are also available upon request. Pendants and chains are composed of a nickel-free alloy.

Image is designed by mThe Little Lighthouse,  printed out on high quality matte paper and secured under a clear glass dome that magnifies and protects the image.

how sweet it this little design?  

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proverbs 31:28 pendant: The Little Lighthouse


please remember this is an adoption fundraising auction.  we are working hard at trying to raise the funds we need to make our haitian adoption happen.  


THE LITTLE LIGHTHOUSE
Pendant bezel measures 1.5" in diameter and includes a beautiful 32" vintage style necklace with a lobster-style clasp. Longer/shorter necklaces are also available upon request. Pendants and chains are composed of a nickel-free alloy.

Image is designed by The Little Lighthouse, printed out on high quality matte paper and secured under a clear glass dome that magnifies and protects the image.


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silver creek net: Snake River Net Company

please remember this is an adoption fundraising auction.  we are working hard at trying to raise the funds we need to make our haitian adoption happen.  


SNAKE RIVER NET COMPANY

Snake River Net Company makes handmade wood nets. These nets are crafted from exotic hardwoods from around the world. These nets are not only beautiful but constructed with the finest quality to last a lifetime. Snake River Net Company started crafting nets in 2011 and has developed a design that is not only beautiful, but functional.  The craftsman behind these beautiful nets is a man by the name of Mike Avery.  He has such a gift for craftsmanship... and is truly one of the nicest guys I have ever met.  
I honestly am so impressed with the beauty of the net.  


made of walnut, cherry walnut & insert handle made of beech.  




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darling handmade doll: Meme & Pearl


please remember this is an adoption fundraising auction.  we are working hard at trying to raise the funds we need to make our haitian adoption happen.  

MEME & PEARL
i just have to share with you what it says in her shop... because she introduces herself beautifully.

Hello! Welcome to my sweet little shop! I love creating dolls and other sewn items for the people you care about. For every doll that is bought from my shop, I donate a doll to a local charity called CASA. They provide help and support to abused and neglected children. With every purchase, you are bringing comfort and love to a child you care about and one that could really use a friend. What could be better than that?!

seriously?  what could be better than that?  


is donating a doll that is already created of your choice.  here are two of my favorites that she has listed in her shop right now. aren't they the cutest little things ever?  



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wild & free: On Briarwood Lane


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ON BRIARWOOD LANE

Wild & Free! This beautiful 6" wooden vintage hoop is embroidered with various wildflowers and colors onto white cotton fabric. Letters are in a dark green gray. Mounted and completed with a protective felt backing.
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give your life away t-shirt: Mercy Ink

please remember this is an adoption fundraising auction.  we are working hard at trying to raise the funds we need to make our haitian adoption happen.  


MERCY INK
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you could get this fabulous t-shirt for yourself.  i mean seriously... isn't it amazing.


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love makes a family: The Sign Cafe

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THE SIGN CAFE
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color selections available.

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places we've been world map: The Sign Cafe

please remember this is an adoption fundraising auction.  we are working hard at trying to raise the funds we need to make our haitian adoption happen.  

THE SIGN CAFE

color selections available.

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come thou fount: Lindsay Letters

Monday, March 2, 2015

please remember this is an adoption fundraising auction.  we are working hard at trying to raise the funds we need to make our haitian adoption happen.  

LINDSAY LETTERS
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come thou fount
i never grew up singing hymns.  this was one of the first hymns i was introduced too.  it is also one of my favorites.

retail value: $20
starting bid: $15
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brave, strong & courageous print: Lindsay Letters

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LINDSAY LETTERS
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can you even handle the wonderful that this print makes you want to take.

retail value: $20
starting bid: $15


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